This pubic journal entry is for future self-reflection as well my hopes are that these journal entries will encourage other individuals to see and understand the struggles that come with being a servant unto Yahweh.
God, is very Able, I’m a testament to this statement! Before I became a Christian I was a bad dude to be around, I was driven by inner pain and my life story is like a modern-day Saul turned Paul.
Most of my life I perfected the element of revenge and many that have witness me getting revenge on others would state that Pyrx, dude is no joke when it comes to revenge on others. But this is whom I became known as with my old lifestyle, not someone I’m proud of but also someone God approached in my darkest hour to show me my errors in life
Before I became a Christian since I was a teenager I set out to make a name for myself. I became a person others would seek out to plan revenge on others. I would get to know the person’s weaknesses and target that person(s) weakness I would come to find out about the person being targeted for revenge. This by far is NOT my proudest moment in life either and God displayed to me His displeasure with my willingness to seek such malice upon others.
I was fueled by my own inner pain and influenced by demonic powers to seek such malice behavior towards others… I’m happy to say I am not that person anymore! I now have goals to be a Christian motivator/life coach. I now seek to help others that are fueled by inner pain to NOT seek malice behavior and teach them through the Word of God, that a person no longer has to be fueled by their inner pain to seek redemption to their inner pain but instead seek redemption through Jesus Christ the only true life redemption that can be found through Jesus Christ.
This is why I say, my life is like a modern-day Saul, becomes Paul, because the two separate versions of Saul, and Paul, are night and day comparisons and the same in my life. The very me that sought revenge and made a name for myself doing so is no longer such a person anymore.
17 Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, the new creation has come: The old has gone, the new is here! 18 All this is from God, who reconciled us to himself through Christ and gave us the ministry of reconciliation: 19 that God was reconciling the world to himself in Christ, not counting people’s sins against them. And he has committed to us the message of reconciliation. 20 We are therefore Christ’s ambassadors, as though God were making his appeal through us. We implore you on Christ’s behalf: Be reconciled to God. 21 God made him who had no sin to be sin for us, so that in him we might become the righteousness of God. 2 Corinthians 5:17-21
I’m a new creation before God, not because of me but, because of Jesus Christ, and what Jesus Christ, endured for mankind on the cross. (John 3:16) Because of Jesus Christ, I no longer have to seek revenge but can imitate Jesus Christ, and provide forgiveness unto others. I started S.o.H first off because God asked me too! but I also started the S.o.H movement because this world is full of hurting individuals that are seeking to know what love really looks and feels like! and I’ve come to know Jesus Christ, the only perfect known Son, of YHWH, also known to mankind that has displayed and acted out love like no other before or after Jesus Christ.
I no longer want to be seen or known as the person that seeks or teaches others that revenge is the way but instead, teach others that Jesus is the answer to all elements of life.
Join With Me In Prayer!
Father, I, “Input Your Name Into Prayer” I’m tired of living life my way, Oh, Lord, teach me your way the only true way that promotes love, mercy, forgiveness, while also living out a life that promotes living out life imitating your Son Jesus Christ, the only true Soulja of Hope, that can be found and imitated. Help me Lord, for I admit my sins (call out your sins before the Lord) to you Lord, for I no longer want my words and actions to be driven by my sins but driven by the guidance of the Holy Spirit. Amen!