I’m sharing this with everyone in a public format because what the devil meant for shame and harm I’m going to turn around into a testimony of just how great and powerful Jesus Christ, is towards mankind even though we all fall short of the Glory of God, My hopes by sharing this that many others will see the sovereignty of God and Jesus Christ’s true forgiveness.
My Lord, (Jesus Christ,) I’m posting about this situation to bring Glory unto heaven something the devil surely didn’t see coming when the pits of hell tried to awaken the gangster mindset within me, Lord, I’m sorry I allowed this to happen on my end, I’ve learned from this and I will strive to do better for you Lord, for I truly want to imitate Jesus Christ, as a Soulja of Hope. Amen!
23 for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God, 24 and all are justified freely by his grace through the redemption that came by Christ Jesus. 25 God presented Christ as a sacrifice of atonement, through the shedding of his blood —to be received by faith. He did this to demonstrate his righteousness, because in his forbearance he had left the sins committed beforehand unpunished — 26 he did it to demonstrate his righteousness at the present time, so as to be just and the one who justifies those who have faith in Jesus. Romans 3:23-26
Today this post that I’m writing as a teaching point hits home close for me as well. Why do I say this? Well, Yesterday I awoke and from the minute I awoke nothing started out right and throughout the day small elements kept building up and by evening time I was mentally worn down the stress throughout the day kept building up heavier and instead of seeing the stress as a sign I was letting the stress have the opportunity to push me away from the Holy Spirit’s guidance, I instead let the stress get the better of me.
Before I go on talking about this I want to take a moment to say that, even though we have times in our lives where we push God away God will NOT push us away, Instead God, is still there fully understanding what we are going through and is ready to forgive.
I as I started to mention above I was letting the stress get the better of me throughout the day, to the point I became blinded that the devil was gnawing at my flesh through the stress. I should of placed my trust in the Lord Jesus Christ, more but instead of doing such, I let the trust issues I suffer from daily get the better of me… Why is this? Well, by evening time I was highly stressed out and I & Ana, was walking in the neighborhood nothing new here about that except, this man down the street from our home got foul-language with Ana, and for these last 8 months I would have forgiven instantly and speak Jesus Christ, into the situation…
But last night this was not the case I let the fact that the man unfairly call Ana, the b-word. get under my skin. Ana, like many times before said “Pyrx, let it go and let God handle it, Pyrx, just forgive and let it go.” But this is not how it went down. 😢 Instead I felt the old gangster mindset come alive within and I fired back with hasty words which made the situation worse. I challenged the man and told him, you don’t know my past and what I’m capable of, then I said come on back your words with your fist if your man enough.
By know Ana, is begging me not to go through with fighting this man, but at this point the stress throughout the day had me worn-down the old gangster side of me wasn’t going to punk out, I was straight up ready to fight… Ana, has known me since my teenager years she has seen me fight back then. Ana, could see I was switching from being a Godly, man to straight out gangster mode. Ana, said sir, I believe nothing good is going to come out of this you may get hurt real bad.
To be continued in part 2