I’m sharing this with everyone via public format because, what the devil meant for shame and harm I’m going to turn around into a testimony of just how great and powerful Jesus Christ, is towards mankind even though we all fall short of the Glory of God, My hopes by sharing this that many others will see the sovereignty of God and Jesus Christ’s true forgiveness.
23 for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God, 24 and all are justified freely by his grace through the redemption that came by Christ Jesus. 25 God presented Christ as a sacrifice of atonement, through the shedding of his blood —to be received by faith. He did this to demonstrate his righteousness, because in his forbearance he had left the sins committed beforehand unpunished — 26 he did it to demonstrate his righteousness at the present time, so as to be just and the one who justifies those who have faith in Jesus. Romans 3:23-26
Before I go on talking about this I want to take a moment that even though we have times in our lives where we push God away God will NOT push us away, Instead God, is still there fully understanding what we are going through and is ready to forgive.
In the previous post Part 1 I left off where the flesh side of me was getting ready to go full gangster mode on a male that had some foul things to say about my lady Ana,
By know Ana, is begging me not to go through with fighting this man, but at this point the stress throughout the day had me worn-down and at first I didn’t step down the old gangster side of me wasn’t going to punk out, I was straight up ready to fight… Ana, has known me since my teenager years she has seen me fight back then. Ana, could see I was switching from being a Godly, man to straight out gangster mode. Ana, said sir, I believe nothing good is going to come out of this you may get hurt real bad.
Then Ana, jumped in front of me and placed her hand on my chest in my heart area and said to me Pyrx, please walk away and place your focus on Jesus because you are about to fully go down a path you cannot come back from without damage… At this point I’m like what do I do Ana, is begging me to step down and this man is looking at me as I’m a punk because a woman is basically trying to take control to have peace enter into the situation.
Thank you Jesus, I lowered my pride and walked off knowing this was going to make me look like I was skipping out as a punk. Even though it may have looked that way from the mans point of view, I couldn’t allow these last 8 months mean nothing working for God, for what a few minute fight where either the man got the best of me in the fight or I got the best of him, I must admit for healing to take place lost control of myself and the full gangster mode of the flesh side became active within me for a moment? But I bounced back because I couldn’t take the chance and lose everything I worked for these last 8 months.
I didn’t Display Christ-Like Behavior In This Situation
Many times before this situation I had situations arise where I could of let the flesh side me take hold of me, and on this very evening I let the stress get the better of me losing control of myself and missing out on a opportunity to promote Jesus through my words and actions. I feel terrible I allowed this to happen. I have since forgiven this man and forgiven myself for letting the flesh side of me get the best of me for a moment.
I’ve Learned From This As Well
Trying to start a movement ministry I need to lead by example and that instance I would not want anyone to follow for it did not promote Jesus Christ, it promoted my flesh side. I don’t have trouble putting on the armor God I have trouble keeping it on when the tough becomes tougher… This was a mistake on my end. At all times I need to promote Jesus because people are watching if I know or not and I need to not remove the Armor of God no matter what because situations will arise and I must be ready to not let the flesh side get a hold of me again. I need to promote Jesus is the answer over all situations.
Father, I failed you that evening and I lost it and got into my flesh side I’m sorry Lord, I have learned from this and that you Lord, needs to be the center of all my life, Lord, I surrender my flesh side to you Lord. I forgive this person and I forgive myself for losing it that evening. Thank you Jesus for another chance. Amen!
This will be the last Journal Post Here Via S.o.H
I will be sharing future journal entry posts on the new website when it launches. I’m excited to bring forth a new element where the S.o.H community and beyond will get to know me as the author of S.o.H on a more relatable aspect.