God Morning! #HopeSquad
Disclaimer: This is a element I was guilty of and have fixed with the guidance of the Holy Spirit since the accident. My Hopes are that this openness of the struggle I struggled with helps someone realize that even when we run from God, that God still loves each of us and still chases after each of us.to continue to love each of us here on earth.
Since last year I have said that here at S.o.H it is about keeping it real (💯) as well representing Jesus Christ, well, today writing about this is not easy for me… But I am going to keep it real here because there is other individuals that may be struggling with the element of becoming to busy for God.
Before the accident I was digging my own grave and I was blinded by pride and denial. Why is This? I will explain below after the short song for the song is the topic I will be speaking about.
Back in January of 2020 I had decided I was going to stop running from God and I was going strong there for a while but then I ended up going back to the route of running from God, when God wanted me to break from the comfort zone I was comfortable with. Please don’t get me wrong I love God, but I was also letting the element I have suffered from since I was a young boy which is rejection. When the Soulja of Hope website started to become more popular I got caught up with chasing after the popularity.
The Holy Spirit tried to convict me of my behavior of ignoring spending time with God, but I just kept burying myself in ministry work. The S.o.H Team, reached out to me and tried to place me back on the right track but I was too prideful and in deep denial by the time 2020 was coming to an end. A few days before the accident I cried out to God stating how I felt like a traitor in the Judas way and how I was sorry for becoming to busy for God, but then I went right back to being busy again because I let my eyesight become focused on the full plate of life.
A few days after that prayer I went out with Ana, to run errands and my life is now forever changed physically and spiritually. The title says I am thankful for the accident and I’m truly are, and that is because being on bed rest for a month now I couldn’t run from the Holy spirit by becoming busy to distract myself. Nope I had no choice but to be on bed rest and place my life on hold. The Holy Spirit convicted me and told me things about myself that was hard to hear but was truthful.
This past month since December 3rd when the accident happen my relationship with God has become stronger! and I plan to not go back to my old ways because it took God, taking me down by allowing my leg to become broken so my attention could be captured and so I could refocus on my relationship with our Savior Jesus Christ. My hopes are being open with the #HopeSquad community that trust can be built here with the sake of being real with each other as we strive to live for Jesus Christ, for none of us will ever be perfect like Jesus Christ, and this is why we need Jesus to be front and center in our lives and until as individual(s) admit to such real change within cannot begin to take place. It took the accident for me to realize I was running from changing because it was taking me away from my comfort zone. To live for Jesus we have to learn to be uncomfortable and be willing to keep pushing away from the comfort zone for any meaningful change to start to take place.
Thank you for reading the recent content here. My hopes are your relationship with Jesus Christ, becomes more enriched with being real with you guys about struggles we all can face trying to live for Jesus Christ.