Journal Entry 006: Refusing To Give Into Lost Hope

Welcome to Soulja of Hope, I’m your host Nico,
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Hello #hopesquad

This morning I awoke and I said to myself I got to push the negative feedback I have been letting linger within my mind for far too long. I also made my mind up that I am no longer going to live through the motions of life. I’ve decided that I am going to push forward with the dreams God has given that I have put off for far too long.

It is truly not about me like many have told me, that I am trying to make it about me, it is bigger than me for God only has the authority of my true identity here on earth. My life here on earth is for the sole purpose of God directing the direction of my life and as of right now that seems confusing at times but, I refuse to let go of Hope that God has great things instore. covid nor the nay-sayers are going to stop me from achieving my God driven dreams anymore.

As of today even though the ministry hasn’t fully taken off yet, I built the ministry office while I await on God to do His end of things on His timing. For most of my life I have been trying to find my way.

It truly has been before me all along meaning God had a plan for my life here on earth but I was too busy running from embracing that call upon my life. I’m sick and tired felling worthless within with no driven purpose. Why I allowed myself to feel this way for 30+ years puzzles me but, I cannot allow it to continue. It has to change! In the previous posting I made a declaration that I was going to change my mindset with the guidance of the Holy Spirit. I am no longer living life with the mindset I am a failure because God doesn’t make junk.

A Living Sacrifice
1 I appeal to you therefore, brothers, by the mercies of God, to present your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and acceptable to God, which is your spiritual worship. 2 Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that by testing you may discern what is the will of God, what is good and acceptable and perfect. Romans 12:1-2

Going forward even though it won’t be easy I am going to awake each day granted by God and thank God daily that He is working on bringing forth my God given calling to be more clear in my mind and as God does surely there will be changes going forth with this website and the street ministry as I mature with the guidance of the Holy Spirit. This website from the get go has gone through seasons just like we go through life seasons and I am currently going through a life season where deeper maturity is taking place.

Moving forward! I am going to do like Ana, always says to me when I go through rough patches in life “Nico, God needs you to not give in or give up instead soulja up and push through God has your back!” Ana, is such a blessing from God she always directs me in the direction of God when she senses I am starting to fall back into the behavior of running from God all over again. Moving forward I am going to push forward with the mindset I got souls to lead to the alter of Christ Jesus, our truest Soulja of Hope that is mankind’s only Savior and Healer.


Father God thank you for providing me the opportunity to author Soulja of Hope, Lord it truly is not about me it is about you Lord Christ Jesus! I invite the Holy Spirit to guide me to become more mature with my relationship with Christ Jesus, I also invite the Holy Spirit to teach me how to display that maturity with the writings here and the street ministry in a way that leads others to you Christ Jesus. Amen!

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God Bless!

Nico, (Lead Author)


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